I still don't undertsand why,
For six months...six months.. you made me love you.
The whispers of sweet nothings stll spin around my head as soon as I lay it down on my pillow. But its not really my pillow. I had to run from my home, just to escape for a while.
Six months.. then a message out of the blue, 6am..it takes us a full 10minutes of converstation.
Then nothing, there one second, and gone the next, Feel as if I have whiplash.
After everything, after all I ask for was honesty. That if you didn't love me, then leave me.
But you see, I can't tell if you did love me, or didn't. It is all a jumble in my head.
Evidence that I can see now make light of both, can be seen to lean towards one or the other.
That is all I am stuck on. And that is what is hurting the most.
I shouldn't be in love with a lie, and I wont be. But was the lie in love with me?
What pisses me off though, was you knew everything.. and I mean, everything. Every shadow and scar... but still you didn't see that you should pull away.
Should have pulled away. Should have left me alone.
I am good alone.. I know what alone is like, it is familiar.
But I will learn from this, as I have done in the past. And I'll admit you helped me learn things to. I am both saddened and greatful...
But next time, leave the broken girl out of it.. she doesnt want you.
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