I have a little baby prey mantis on my ceiling... its pretty adorable... not going to lie haha. 

Anyway, well I am less tired than I was last night, still pretty exhausted, fucking stress gets to me. Also the sun and the heat... dear god the heat.. WHY!! I mean I love being warm and sitting in the sun, but this is just ridiculous.... I get migraines for sitting in it too long though... which is really just a fucking pain in the arse. Me and my mate, to escape some of the heat but also to enjoy the sun (and maybe tan, ... mostly end up burning) we blew up a little kiddies paddling pool. What I mean by blowing it up, we actually blew it up with our own breath.. my head was swimming by the end of it haha. We then filled it by hand, due to the fact that we don't have a proper connection for the hose. It was glorious, we were being classy as fuck. With our beer and cooling down after a hard day in a kiddie pool... yip we be awesome as fuck :D

Second day of classes today, it happens to be one of my favorite classes though. Combining the love of politics and the study of human beings in one class. Political Anthropology.. the name alone expresses its awesomeness. The lecturer makes it better to though. Hes just so lively and interactive with the class. I have had him before in a first year class, Endangered Cultures. Loved it then <3 

This image expresses how my friends react when I am talking about the classes I am talking about. There is me being all enthusiastic and shit (Tamaki-sempi; the blonde one) and then my mates just sit there giving me a weird look or just sighing at me (Kyoya-sempi; glasses one :P). They love me really haha. 

Down side to today? Is that I am in so much pain! Yesterday, I thought I should be nice and carry some of the heavy shit... one was a large box filled with goody bags, the other one was a smaller but heavier box filled with...  I have no idea actually lol. As well as carrying my own bag and a chair so we had something to sit on :/ yay! Felt a bit like a pack horse admittedly. AND THEY CHANGED MY FONT! .. 

I was assigned to making the signs to be put up. So in thinking that I should link things together and opinions of everyone.. I had this really cool block font that looked like someone had written it with finger painting. Looked really cool and different, it was really individualistic and would be really fun. Our cause isn't something to take lightheartedly, but it expressed our uniqueness. It was something ours.But no, in the end it was changed. My effort was discarded... yes it took me five minutes but it took me that long to try and find the same colors to match the logo... but no... Its fine... not like I put a lot of effort into it... none at all... 

noo... not like I am upset about it either. I'm not really upset over it... just more annoyed than anything. It was my one job but even then they didn't let me do it really, by editing it and not telling me about it. Till the next day... Well anyway I have to go and finish off assignments ... write up notes... and all that shit <3 Peace out :)

This: is what I currently feel like, in fact it may happen in the next few minutes while I type. 

Well it was my first day back at uni, and it was rather full on. Getting up early to help set up on clubs day, then shooting off to class, then back to our table where I became the mime with tape over my mouth to illustrate the point. I was so much fun though.. and the looks I was getting were priceless. :D 

I don't have class till 12 tomorrow, haha very lucky me :), and then one at 1 hehe. But I am rather excited about it all, its political anthropology... and yes I am rather interested in politics and policy stuff. I find it rather fascinating :P 

Anyway, just wanted to tell ya'll how awesome today was. And at the end of the day, Me and my flat mate set up our cheep ass paddling pool, filled it all by hand, chilled out in the sun and our very large foot spa, drank and had pizza for dinner. 

Lol sorry for the lack of enthusiasm but I am exhausted.  

Night night everyone :3

Good morning bloggers and viewers 

I was scouring Facebook today, as I'm sure most people do now days and there was this post that one of my friends had shared. I'll share the link with ya'll (http://tvnz.co.nz/breakfast-news/tvnz-stars-read-their-own-online-abuse-video-5849207). One thing you should know before i start my rant is that I have been bullied most of my life and I am also a part of Stand for the Silent NZ which is an anti-bullying group started in America. It is also on the major topic due to Charlotte Dawson, a New Zealand/Australian TV personality, who committed suicide a few days ago due to abusive messages sent to her. 
RANT START:
I can't seem to wrap my head around why some people would do this, I mean yea there are a few Stars that I'm not a big fan of, but i don't go to their Twitter and outright insult them. I think the Stars are amazing for what they can do. Hell i couldn't be a model... ever, i can't sing, and I'm totally shit at acting let alone a fucking good enough memory to memorize all those lines. And the stunts they do in movies? Hell i would break a bone or 50, or worse, I would dislocate every bone in my body (Jellyfishing). They are some of the most amazing people out there (of course I would say this I am a fan girl) I'm envious of them and all that they can do. Some people seem to forget that they are actually human, they are real people, they aren't some untouchable mystical creature. They are people with an amazing talent, my talent is accepting people as they are lol (not sure if this is an actual talent or not, i think it should be for this day and age, same with commonsense. That is a fucking super-power now days). Maybe those who are hurting others, and sending them hurtful feelings need to do it to rise their own self-esteem. Do they enjoy belittling people? Does it make them feel all the more powerful when they can see their victim crying? Do they enjoy ruining someones day? Making them feel all the more shit about themselves?
I don't fit within your fucking lines, I like being the pen who can't stay within the lines. I like being who I am. So fuck you for judging me when you have no idea who I am, because I don't wear the clothing you want me to? Because I do what I want? Hangout with the "wrong" crowd?

(Tom Hiddleston rage!)

 I happen to be an awesome person, who sticks by my friends and loves them to pieces!
...had a little rage moment...
Sorry about that.. :)
Here is one of my own stories or bullying:

The man I was in love with, controlled me by bullying me. Making me feel as if I was the bad one, hurting him. As the saying goes, we keep the love we think we deserve. He used his words to keep me separated from my family, kept me from hanging with my friends, I lived in my room for the two years I went out with him. He would accuse me of cheating on him, that I didn't love him, that I was a shit girl friend who lied to him. My mental health and self-esteem hit the bottom of the barrel, and I continued to let him hurt me, and break the shattered heart all the more. He was projecting his own actions on to me, if it wasn't for his sister, I would never have learned that he was cheating on me. I had some amazing people in my life during this time that helped me see that I deserved a hell of a lot better that this asshole. It took me a long time to convince myself that I deserved better, but I thank my amazing friends to this day. Though I now know I am better than an abusive relationship, this will still affect me for the rest of my life, it has left me with a lot of trust issues. The actions of others can leave a massive impression of those on the receiving end.
 (we are doing an open day at uni and we were asked if we wanted to submit a story and this was mine) 

Bullying is a major thing, some people pass it off as a normal thing in life that every body goes through. That it builds character. They can make up what ever stories they want, its not the case. It really screws people up. 

When someone asked me what would my boggart be if i was in front of that wardrobe. I said it would be a crowd of people. People are some of the cruelest creatures on plant earth. I'm not saying this to be mean to anyone, but its true. All you need to do it look on the news, pretty sure there is an now an average of murders that are reported.
I'm not the perfect human, far from it, I'll make mistakes, I'll screw up, and I know that some days I just end up saying the wrong things. But bullying and abuse... something I will never condone or do to another being.
Rant over.

My package arrived today! ... the Posty woke me up however :( but yay! Love my mummy who sent it to me hehe! It's only a cat-fur-friendly blanket but still, she sheds a lot! 

Poor baby has an infection to... she is pretty old though... I dont really want to get in a cat rant.. i can talk about her for hours.. she's just so cute.

First day back at Uni tomorrow... but I get to help out at clubs day :) woot woot!! Time for free shit and free food. The recipe for happy students haha.  
Anyway that is me for today people. Hope ya'll have a good one :)

Life at the moment: Pretty much sucks.

My university is making me do only five papers this semester which has put me in one shitty place with Studylink... because I'm not a full time student I can't get course related costs or any allowance so i can have money to live. My parents have to help me out at the moment. It is not my fault that I can only do five papers this year, I have no control over that aspect of things. It feels like I'm being punished for not being able to enter third year. My bad for suffering from extremely bad migraines, my bad, didn't mean to get sick and inconvenience you University or you Studylink. 

I may be a social work student, but all these policies and politics are just making me more and more tired of the system students are in. The Government is like "Students are our future work force, they will improve the future.." and all that blah blah shit. Then how about you invest in those students then, yea you have Studylink and they can apply for grants and scholarships. But those who don't meet your overly anal list of requirements, get fucked over and left with almost nothing. Well done government and supporting those of your future, pretty sure they will end up hating you like kids with abusive and lying parents. 

Many of us who are studying are actually interested in helping our country, to better the way that we live in society. Give them a round of applause for there awesomeness and fucking us over. Well done, well done. 

Current Mood: 

I'm not okay!
I'm not okay!
I'm not okay!
You wear me out!

You said you'd read me like a book,
But the pages are all torn and frayed.

Now I'm okay!
I'm okay!
I'm okay now!

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth!
I mean this, I'm okay!
Trust me!

I'm not okay!
I'm not okay!
Well, I'm not okay!
I'm not o-fucking-kay!
I'm not okay!
I'm not okay!

Ooouuu! Ou! Just have to say that I'm getting a package in the mail... what is the relevance of this information? Its a freaking package in the mail.. its like Christmas has come early... got to enjoy the simple things in life..

Anyway, that is all the ranting for today... much love!