Today i ran
was the most pathetic thing i have done in the past two years
what did i run from?
I couldn't answer that because i dont know.
I said good night and left my phone in my room so i could wash away the dirt,
on the outside, sure i was clean, but inside it is still thick and coking me as i swallow.
I could simply blame the fact that i am on my period, but i don't know. So here i am
Sitting alone in my room crying over nothing.
But also not alone as those voices have come out of the wood work. Already screaming at me.
"Dear God you're pathetic."
"Hahaha you ran"
Over and over, the insults rain in. The worst part? I believe them.
I can't bring myself to do anything. I couldn't get out of bed this morning until i ran away.
I kept sleeping, was the only thing i could do...
I feel like the old me. And by fuck thats scaring me.
help me...
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