Because of you....

Because of you, I have no father
Because of you, I have my mother
Because of you, I had my foundations shattered to pieces
Because of you, I lost a whole year of my life
Because of you, I didn't think I could get this far into my degree
Because of you, I struggle to trust people
Because of you, I only formed my own idenity at 21
Because of you, I am terrified to love
Because of you, I had to take the role of mother to take care of my own mum
Because of you, me and my siblings struggle with most aspects of our lives
Because of you, I have built walls around my heart..

Because of him, I feel as though I can love
Because of him, I feel as though I can trust
Because of him, I see moments of self beauty
Because of him, I feel like the sun in someones life

Because of you though, I am terrified I will say and do the wrong thing, that telling him everything will scare him away.
Because of you though, deep down I know he will leave me, even though it may not be true.
Because of you though, its a real fear for me that he will tire of me and find someone new.
Because of you though, I only let him so close before pushing him away.

He scares the voices away, but because of you, they scream even louder.